All Roads Lead To You

There's this hole now. I'm not sure if it was there before or not, but I can no longer ignore the blatantly obvious. There's a hole, and with each passing moment, it's getting bigger and bigger.

Each time I try make it smaller, it seems to get out of control. And I feel like you don't even know it's happening. You tell me that you feel a change, but you don't do anything to make it better.

One day, I will crack. I will scream, yell, and cry. It will come to a point that it can no longer be fixed, and you will just sit there and wonder how it got that far. Maybe it will hurt. Maybe you already see it coming. Maybe you're looking forward to it. I can't feel what you feel anymore.

Maybe this is all in my head and I'm just rambling. Maybe I'll wake up one day and feel... anything, and it will all go back to how it was.

It's a dangerous path I'm on, and no matter how it plays out in my head, all I see is destruction.

Brown People Don't Tan

Isn't that a big ass King Coconut?

Hey home skillets!

What have you guys been up to? There isn't much in my world. Other than a day at the beach, it's been rather humdrum at the home-front. 

I've been kind of moody lately. Snapping at people, laying in bed all day watching Big Bang Theory (I bought seasons 1-6 and I don't think I'll stop till the very last episode.) nope, I haven't been much fun at all. I don't think there's one particular thing wrong - I'm just not happy with anything these past few days. It happens every once in a while; I get all moody and annoyed and Zak steers clear till the storm has passed. This time it's taking a lot longer than usual. Raar. I want change but I don't know in exactly what form, so how in the hell can I do something to feel better if I don't know what I want to do. I make sense in my head. Just ignore me and let me rant.

The day at the beach as super fun though. We had the beach to ourselves for the most part and I got to spend the day ocean side. I could stay at the beach forever. I should invest in waterfront property. I didn't get as 'burnt' this time around. Brown people don't tan, we burn. 

Isn't it beautiful, ya'll?